A step on the path

After the previous post, me and Jen had a talk and we agreed that we have to see each other less. This goes into affect this week starting today, and does it need to be said that i'm not looking forward to this? Anyhow, I will be diligent in my ability to distract myself as that will be the key.

I will attempt to achieve a bunch of the things from the previous post, and hope to mostly occupy my time with reading, cleaning, guitar learning, exercising, kung fu practicing, and surely more things that I can't think of at this very moment. I need to re-establish myself in general, get all my ducks in a row, and feel like I'm of worth to someone again, and this time is perfect for that. Its as if the gods themselves have set aside time for me, since its the only way I can move forward.

Oddly enough its not saddening anymore, and simply feels like a necessity, as if the doctor told me I have to have my leg amputated and instead of going out and running around i'm already hobbling despite having both legs. Blech that was a terrible metaphor...but whatever. Hopefully i'll come out of this more Lon than ever. I wish myself much luck, and I recommend to anyone that stumbles accross this that if you ever want an open relationship; Do it early when you meet someone you care about.