Bitter Rant (You've been warned)

So I"ve touched on this before, but now it'll have a nice dash of bitterness to it. Two relationships in which I"m good, and they leave. How the fuck am I supposed to feel about this? They both say "Lon go out, meet someone who deserves you, blah blah blah".

I laugh dryly but in reality, what should I do? Go out and meet someone else who thinks I'm great but leaves in the end? Something has to change, and I don't know what it is but it has to change, or this is going to keep happening otherwise, and I don't know about you guys ( my non-existent readers) but I certainly don't feel like going through all this crap again. I mean its fun while it lasts but the recovery...its like a 2 week hangover for a night out drinking, just not worth it.

I still keep in touch with my last ex, and I try to be "moved on guy" and in reality I am. But I like to bitch about women, relationships, dating, and my chances therein. She'll be super supportive, and of course the entire time all I can think is, "Yea you say I"m great, but your still not with me, so either you're lying, or think I'm stupid enough to believe this...or I don't know what".

And the fight between my love of sex, and my love of not getting emotionally skewered wages onwards...unfortunately my bitterness just doesn't have the stamina that my sex drive does...which is unfortunate...but its how it goes.

That has become my favored saying of late, its like a sigh in words. Take a deep breath, shrug and imperceptible shrug, and say "That's how it goes". This is how I get through my days.