Thursday, December 28, 2006

One of many hurdles

I realize that I have many self hurdles to overcome in the coming months, and I will describe them here, both for your amusement and my own need to enter them into some kind of taxonomy.

Well this is the second time that I've been in a relationship with someone who has baggage about relationships, and/or men, and/or both. This hurdle is a little harsh since I've once again come out of it with no negative commentary on how I am in a relationship, how I am as a person/in bed/in confined quarters etc etc. Now typically when one does the "take stock of self" after a breakup, you're doing so in order to adjust your approach, and hopefully come out of it new and different, and up to your neck in ass, so to speak. I have absolutely nothing to go on...what have I done wrong? nothing...so twice I've been a great boyfriend, and now I"m expected to go out and apply this again, hoping that the odds play out in my favor this time? Can anyone else see how annoying a leap of faith this is?

So I'll try to adjust what I can adjust, admitedly I feel like I fall too hard and too fast and that that tends to scare some women off...I always saw it in a more romantic light of "Well if it feels right then I should be falling this quickly"...but that's the negative point I can assign myself so I have to bow and attempt to fix it. That is all.

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